Have you ever tried to help someone and sundelly you were considered a bad person? Sometimes it happens...Sometimes, being a good person doesn't help you a lot. I met a friend who doesn't have a good portuguese, and this friend makes a lot of mistakes. I was supposed to correct him, but when I did it, I was judged as a person that wanted to laugh at him. I don't mind if he doesn't speak correctly (i guess i've minded more before), but I think that I can help him, due to my portuguese skills. Sincerely, I din't like this judgement, and I decided not to help anyone.
I met another friend who was interested on meeting one friend of mine. He intended to date this friend of mine. But, I decided not to do this, and I was consideredbad person too. So, what had I better do?
Nowadays, I can figure out the differences between people. There's people who prefer to be helped, others prefer not to. Okay, okay, I know that everybody have their particularities, but it's hard to realize what's the person's type.
I know my type. So, I guess I can help and judge who I decide to. I'm not obligated to help anyone, but I'm sure of my good intentions. From this moment, I'd better stay quiet and wait for help, but if it doesn't work, fuck off!

"You know I love you,

I really do

But I can't fight anymore for you

And I don't know maybe we'll be together again sometime

In another life

In another life

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"In another life (Veronicas)- Hook Me Up's Album

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Sometimes, we see the other's problems and we just can't do nothing, instead of looking at it and commenting with that friend beside you. But, Have you ever talked to yourself "fortunately, it wasn't with me"? Sometimes, it's more reasonable to see the problem of your friend keeping your mouth shut that giving him some advices. You know why? it's because you just CAN'T imagine nothing if you don't live it by yourself.Today, I talked to my friend and she said she broke up with her boyfriend. What a lovely couple! Nobody could imagine its end. So, I talked to myself "what if I broke up my relationship"? Well, it's easy to say "nothing lasts forever". But tell me: who are cut out for the 'forever' end? who are able to give up something that was planned to be eternal?...It's difficult to answer, because we can barely see people who are like this.Destiny, destiny....I can feel the butterflies when I spell this word...It requires us to be ready and strong, to be prepaired. But who remembers it? I don't either. We are made of bones, breakable bones! This is the hardest part of our body. So, Why couldn't our heart break down too? Following the destiny is completely impossible, because this proper word show us how uncertain it is.Coming back to my friend's case, I figure out that I just can't plan anything, even those things which sound cool, lovely or strict. Unfortunately, I coulf break those dreams that I used to have when I was younger. Dreamings about the world, about the future, about me. Fortunately, I can't do this. I can't open my eyes and see this world rearing its ugly head for me. If I want, I can keep up dreaming and imagining that world that I've always dreamed about. That love which lasts forever. That friends who's always by my side, helping me. That music which will make me cry for a reason that I still don't know.Destiny, my friend. My brother, my dad, my advicer. I prefer to see you as a good thing or person that is here to guide me, somehow. Maybe thing should be like this, maybe not. But it's irresitible for me not to put this case related to love, to couples, to MY love. There's a lot of people in the world, and we are fool. We are completely fool, because all we need is love. Soon or later, we're supposed to find that soulmate, somewhere. And if my love doesn't work, it's because I'll find something better for me in the future. It's because I have a lot of things to learn before getting engaged, before raising a child. This better this is there, waiting for me. Maybe this is with me, already. Maybe it's living your own life. This could be there, in the destiny, my dear destiny.

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P.S. That picture is from an australian band called 'The Veronicas'